I think I am losing site of the prize here. For the last few days I have been viewing labor as the end goal, to the point where I have almost stopped thinking about the baby himself. I have been having contractions ranging from mild to quite painful for about 3 days now, averaging 20 minutes apart, but nothing is really happening. It is really frustrating. Its hard because I can’t really get a good night’s sleep, or even a good nap. The thing is, I have started to come up with all sorts of irrational fears and thoughts – the baby is so big that he can’t fit out, there is something wrong with the baby, there is something wrong with me, they miscalculated the due date, on and on. I have nothing but time right now, and I can’t even do anything useful. I don’t feel like doing ANYTHING.
Also my belly has been itching like crazy for the last 2 days.
So I have a midwife appointment here in about 30 minutes, so I am heading out the door. An update will follow shortly!