I have to back to work 3 weeks from tomorrow. I don’t exactly expect anyone to feel sorry for me since I will have had 6 months away from work, and I am going back 3 days a week, not 5, but still. Ugh. It is hard work taking care of a baby, and there are very few breaks. It doesn’t even stop at night, and while it is getting easier and a lot more fun now that Zevry can sit up and entertain himself for 10 minutes or so, it is still a sort of constant work. Its work I love and it is not like digging ditches or anything, but being 100% responsible for another human being is kind of exhausting! He has been on a 2 week long growth spurt – it seems like he wants to eat all the time – day and night! He weighs more, but he also looks skinnier to me – I think he must have shot up a few centimeters. So a small part of me wants to go back to work just to have a break from the demands. But it is a very small part. Very, very small. For the small downside of not getting to sleep in and carrying 17 pounds of love and sweetness with me everywhere, I get to lounge in my pajamas, go wherever I want, take a nap if I am super tired, and generally have a nice relaxed pace of life.
I do miss being a productive member of the working world. I miss the accomplishment of doing something well at work and having defined start and stop points for projects and the work days, but I wonder how it will be when I am just thinking of my little boy all day? Also, my company has been really good to me (and I to it), and I am very grateful to have a good job that I like, but I am not passionate about it. I don’t live and breathe project management, so it is going to be tough to go back. At least I get to ease back in. That should help. Oh Powerball… why have you forsaken me? Let me win you so I can be a lazeabout forever!
In other news, Zevry has learned the sign for “more.” He does it really well, but not consistently. He’s getting there though! I think he grasps the concept because he will often make the more sign when I am tickling him or kissing him, as well as feeding him, but sometimes he just bangs his hand on the food tray of his chair and yells to demand more. Its funny and I want to laugh, but I also don’t want to encourage yelling to get things, so I have to put on my stern face and say “no!” He is also rolling over both ways with complete ease. He can even do steamrollers, where he makes a few revolutions in a row. He can also stand against the back of the couch by himself and collect toys off the edge. His vocalizations are becoming more wordlike – he “talks” a lot and his babble sounds more like another language than just a bunch of noise. Zevry is also into spitting – he gathers up as much spit as he can and just pushes it out. I think he likes to see what he can do with his mouth, but he needs a new bib every 5 minutes. And finally, he is starting to draw his legs under himself and try to push up when he is on his belly, which is a precursor to crawling. All in all, he does a few things which are really advanced for his age, a few things right on target, and a few things he could do a little better! I am really happy with the way he is developing – I think he is perfect and wonderful!